STRESS....

...that has been me over the past couple of months. I have been a total "stress ball"!

Time to jump off of the stress boat and head for the mainland. I like this picture because I am a very technical person. I can look at this picture and can say "yes that is me" to every area that is described. So you may ask yourself 'Dianna why are you so stressed'. I simply say good question let me tell you...and do you have all day to listen? Probably many things in my life cause me stress.

There are mainly 2 things. First, my husand is in school in Salt Lake City which is 5 hours away. I miss him and so do the kids. I want him to be successful and often times exclude him from the mundane daily details of home and family. I try to give him as much time away so he can study and do well. From experience, graduate school is really difficult. I did it 10 years ago, but we didn't have 3 kids that we had to worry about. It was a very different time. Steve worked and I went to school. Not to mention I am a little bit more organized and have much better study habits. He is slowly learning what is working for him. It is stressful to know that if he makes less than a "B" or less than 82% he is kicked out of school. Imagine how stressful that is? But I guess when you are taking care of someone at the head of the table during surgery, you want a Nurse Anesthetist that is going to take good care of you and was not the student who was barely making passing grades.

Second, single parenting...do I really need to say anymore? Who will be here in the morning to get the kids fed, dressed, and off to school? Will I be off from work in time to be home when they get off the bus? What am I gonna cook for dinner? When is the laundry elf coming over? I want to work out, but when do I have time? Finally kids are in bed, now some Mommy time...zzzzz.

I am breaking free from the stress and the negative things in my life. I am going to find balance in my life. Today I went to the gym and did Cardio for an hour and it felt awesome. I miss the endorphins! I miss how exercise makes me feel. I drink more water and eat better....basically I feel so good. Can someone please remind me how I feel when I am taking care of myself? Please?!?!

In a previous post from this year, I commented that I need to take care of myself before I can take care of others. That is my plan for 2010. Are you ready for the ride?

Failure is not an option!